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I am absolutely gutted to learn that Mimi Parker has died. I knew that she had been battling ovarian cancer, and that the outlook wasn't great, but I guess I was just hoping for the best. Low completely changed the way I thought about music, and Mimi's contributions to the band were a huge part of that. She doesn't just have one of the most emotive, pure voices I've ever heard -- her songs are works of angelic yet cryptic beauty, and she was an absolute master of minimal drumming. My heart goes out to Alan and the rest of her family and friends.
The first time I saw Low, they were touring for Trust. It is still the best show I have ever seen. I had only recently gotten into them when my sister bought me their then-newest CD, Things We Lost in the Fire, for Christmas, and it quickly became my favorite album -- I was seriously spreading the word of Low like it was the fucking gospel. I hadn't heard Trust yet when I saw them, but I was utterly transfixed from the moment they opened with "(That's How You Sing) Amazing Grace". And I will never forget how completely silent the crowd was when they played "Laser Beam", one of Mimi's best and most beloved songs. It's a strangely comforting feeling to be in a club full of people, none of whom are saying a word, and it takes a truly special artist to command that kind of attention.
Obviously, I bought Trust at the show, and proceeded to listen to it while getting high about 50 times over the course of the next 6 months or so, getting to know its every tiny detail. I love that the first sounds you hear aren't the instruments, but the space -- it's like they have you step into the cathedral where the album was recorded before they start playing. Mimi's two solo songs, "Tonight" and "Point of Disgust", are flickering candles on an album full of oppressively dark, crawling dirges. A lot of critics didn't like those dirges too much, but as a doom metal fan (particularly when the record came out), tracks like "Time Is the Diamond", "The Lamb", "John Prine", and "Shots & Ladders" were like answered prayers to me. Elsewhere, they flirt with uptempo rock ("Canada") and sing-song-y folk rock ("Last Snowstorm of the Year", "La La La Song"). The album's kinda all over the place, and that's why I love it.
And then there's the aforementioned "(That's How You Sing) Amazing Grace". There are countless songs about death, dying, and mourning, and many of them are very good. But Low has a way of tapping into otherwise rarely explored emotional territory, and on this song, they do so masterfully. To me, it's cut of the same cloth as "Murderer", a song that they wrote right around the same time. Both songs deal with mortality, and the anger that we can feel when someone is taken away from us too soon. In "(That's How You Sing) Amazing Grace",
the titular song, once sweet and uplifting, becomes an instrument of torture and submission: a reminder of both the unfairness of our world and the brutal indifference of mortality.
I feel like I'm supposed to end this on a positive note, but I don't know how. Thank you, Mimi, for helping me to understand life a little better. Rest In Peace.
Track listing:
1. (That's How You Sing) Amazing Grace
2. Canada
3. Candy Girl
4. Time Is the Diamond
5. Tonight
6. The Lamb
7. In the Drugs
8. The Last Snowstorm of the Year
9. John Prine
10. Little Argument with Myself
11. La La La Song
12. Point of Disgust
13. Shots & Ladders
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